what i felt today

I don’t know what’s going on with me. Everything around me appears to have change instantaneously. Everything that seemed to be so interesting has turned to some of my worst night mares now…I really don’t know whose responsible for this change…is it the coming of some new people who are making me feel that I must forget the past and learn to adjust and move forward in life…or is it the old people changing…even the person who I thought would be the only one to understand me turned out to be someone who was totally alien…and those whom I avoided thinking they would never understand me are showing signs of understanding…why do I feel that I am the only one whose not able to accept all these new changes..Or are others also trying to show that they are happy even though they are not…even though I am searching for all these answers I know deep within me that I will never get an answer that I would like to hear…wish there was someone who could understand me ,someone who could see deeper than my laughing face…